23rd
Family…
My little sister came over last night and we have not spoken to each other since last year.. She moved out and had such an intolerable attitude, I recall one time that she said that “she hopes I die and if I do, she will not come to my funeral.” I am fine with it really, I know I am not close to my sister, I am sort of close to my sisters. You see, growing up I didn’t have the normal family. There is 10 of us, but only grew up with 4 of them. The oldest is I think 48, and the youngest is 24.
Yea…that was me (on the left bottom) when I was only 12yo I believe..We are one huge family, and 3 of em are not on because they are from my Daddy side. No Dad growing up, I was raised by a bunch of women. Didn’t really care for the whole “male role model”. I wondered if I did have it, would everything come in a full circle. See growing up my mom had implemented the whole your dad is a waste of time and I only use him to survive” I love my siblings, but I love them from a distance. I am close to one of em which is my 5th older sister (top left).
Well the main reason I am doing this is that I wanted to figure out, why I am here. Yeah sound kinda corny and sounds like “wth this fool needs like some psychological assessment.” I feel like I am turning into a new leap, I am starting to re-evaluate everything I look at. Things and purposes that I used to believe are turning into something that maybe I rather had been compromising. This new leap of thoughts are really getting to me. UGH!!!!!!!! There are alot of things I want to change this year. I just hope I get support coming out of this! =) GOODNITES
